candid i say(:

blue!! haha. ilu(:


friday
met syg at 6.
was using lappy before i got ready(:
first, we went to far east to catch dinner.
he's craving for his wanton mee after a long time.
even i got two of my teeth pulled out, i tried to eat.
i ate hokkien mee. i ate 3/4 only.
he finished up for me. thanks(:
after dinner, walked around far east.
so many temptations. gah!
haha. off to kent ridge park to slack.
its on top of a hil. cool(:
homed around 1am. zzzz...
muacks! love you syg >.<

saturday
damn i overslept. hurried up to get ready for school.
met up with dear maisarah at rp to get some breakfast 1st.
after that, school.
supposed to start english consultation at 9 but..
all those late comers made us start at 10.
we got an aircon room!(:
everyone was shocked to see syu injured.
pls get well my dear& pls take care k(:
left school around 1.
it was so cool. its like half of the class together with mrs norlinda headed to cmp to study together.
but at the end tables turned.
mrs norlinda stayed at burger king.
the guys like faizal, zaki, yilong, melville, ahmad& shantosh& filzah too had eng consultation with her there.
me, mai, nai& syu packet macd to skcc.
later on, lijuan, li chan& xinyi came.
the rest of the clique were at burger king with mrs norlinda too.
after that, anna& grace came.
syu was our teacher of the day(:
she is so nice& sweet to stay until late to tutor ss even though her leg is injured.
after a while, mai went home. coincidentally saaban& hafiz came& joined with us.
so fun. we like occupied two long tables. obviously all of us SQUEEZED!!!
hahaha(: had fun& laughter but we really studied as a class yesterday(:
home-d at 7.
monday we're going to meet up again. cool(:
going to cut hair with anna& grace maybe tomorrow or today.
im going to style my hair like jessica from pussycat dolls.
okays thats it. ate porridge for lunch.
gonna go study for now.
bye(:

okays. this is going to be a long post. its from tuesday to today, friday(:

tuesday
school. my unifrom tore. damn. wore pe tshirt the whole day. not fun pe that day cause many of my classmates went for maths o level prelim): but dont worry, we still enjoyed playing captain's ball together(: after school, went to the dentist. angela was not free so went to meet naimah they all. since they were going to meet mdm nora for malay consultation, so home for me. supposed to meet mrs norlinda for english consultation but she didnt come to school. we as a class, 4e understood as her daughter was very ill. so rest in the afternoon& then studied ss at the night.

p.s; i studied much better in the night.

wednesday
school. dnt. yeah! love my class& mr tan too. for the 1st 2 hours, our class& mr tan talk& talk about chilhood& other stuff. he's so nice(: then saaban& hafiz are so funny. they told me everytime they go compass point they must go down pizza hut 1st to see me or not they dont feel good. aww.. aint that sweet of them(: last hour, as usual given a topic to studied on& then mini-test. english consultation after wards. angela wasnt free again): but thats okay because me& anna book her on friday morning(: so went to meet mrs norlinda for english consultation with syu, mai, fil, grace, anna, laisim, melville, adilah, faizal& joycelyn. it was fun cause we studied but at the same time, we gossiped(: home by 730.

p.s; i've learnt to love mrs norlinda even more. thank you teacher& same goes for mr ng. hope you will follow us next year too. anyways i love my model essay!!(:

thurday
firstly i wanna say happy anniversary to me& syg!!(: i love you many many!! anyways i won the bet. i've earned 50 dollars!!(: im such a kind soul to reject your 100 dollars offer& took a smaller amount instead. hehe. i hope our relationship will take us furthermore. im more excited for 1 year instead of months. hehe. met up with you at night before you had to go back to camp. hope you love the flowers(: i miss you already. muacks!

dear syg, this part of this post is especially for you(:

friday
teachers day celebration. morning took a stroll. ya right. much more like hiking with our bags& muddy pathways. after that, recess. ate& went to find my dnt mates to sign the tshirt that pohying sew so lovely. so nice& creative(: after that went to give mr ng& mrs norlinda cards that i made for them. hope they like it(: then it was off for our appointment that me& anna had with angela. ouch! there's goes my tooth& numb for a few hours. damn. anyways concert was marvelous. gave mr tan the tshirt with pohying, grace& adilah. he cried(: he's touched. we could see. he so shy he pat me& grace head. haha(: hope you love the tshirt mr tan(: home with maisarah.

p.s; thank you so much pohying for the effort you put in(: hey cheeyen, off with those tears. cheer up k(:

okays. this will be a post for sunday& today. photos will be posted later. bluetooth's corrupted.

sunday
i woke up around 3 plus. cleaned up joey & home abit. it has been raining heavily during the weekends. what a bummer. hmphs. okays around 5 plus me& 2nd sister, sangeet, headed out to douglas's house to get the microsoft office software for boyfriend. we tried to rush as it was only drizzling. we rode there. dont get me wrong by bicycle. haha. at 1st its sangeet tompang me but when on our way back, when i finally got my grip i tompang her. it started to down pour heavily. we were drenched when we got back& i really mean drenched. all soaking wet. haha. the things i do for love. thanks sangeet(: thanks douglas(: your welcome boyfriend(:

monday
woke up for school due to boyfriend's wake up call as usual. my uniform was stil wet. rfegudhor. no choice cursing. went to use my older uniform that has a hole on it. quickly wento sew it. worst i burnt my pe shorts. hafnrgfnngv. ee! no choise threw it away& went to get my pe shorts that has been with kailing for several months. thank god she finally brought it to school(: thanks babe(: with all the rushing, i wasnt late. phew. i reached school on time. thank god.

okays. grace forgot to bring her tie so wento locker to get one for her. silly girl(: haha. then back to found out got test 1st period; social studies. as usual. its a everyday thing now. intensive programme to prepare us for the n levels which is next week? so fast! ha.

after test, recess. ate mee soto. syu fasting& she's strong(: after that was english& then it was poa. sat with mai& for maths as well. class dismissed.

headed for canteen. call me a big eater me& mai ate again. hehe(: fil went off. adilah went off soon knowing english consultation was canceled. syu& nai came. anna& grace joined us for lunch today(: haha. they studied with us for ss for a while& went off. i continued to studied with maisarah. raf& kal came. kal left for home. raf ate lunch(:

when melville came, i went to the dentist. it was closed for today. yeah(: hehe. can still enjoy my meal. hmms. then home(:

thanks mr richard for helping me photocopy that whole topic of globalisation(:

pls take care my dear boyfriend; i miss you muacks!(:

okays. im posting what happened on my saturday now so late as i dont wish to use the com tomorrow. i wanto study the whole, whole day. english& social studies are just next week. going to concentrate the other subjects later.

supposed to wake up 9am today but i overslept& yes i was abit late for english consultation. had to wait for everyone to come before mrs norlinda wants to start. we started around 10.30& ended around 12.30. filzah, me, syuhaidah, adilah& faizal went for her consultation. we started late as syu& fil were late. so while wating, i told adilah& faizal about 4bia. ha. they got scared too. hehe.

anyways left school with syu. the 3 of them dispersed from us very quickly after mrs norlinda 'dismissed' us. we went econ to grab a bite. then it was home(: sangeet bought me macdonald breakfast. yeah! thanks sis(:

ate once i reached home. after a while when im done with eating, i fell asleep on the sofa when i was watching videos from youtube. woke up around 3 to syg's messages. my body just felt so tired. ha.

night time. met boyfriend. he's late. sighs. went to catch fireworks& it was then dinner at east coast. seafood again! haha. miss megatron already. hmms. didnt go for the meeting. dreadfully tired& maybe cause i got no mood. sorry sally& gang for not coming. i will make it up to you guys soon.

sibuk translation. its like you're being annoying. i could not control. i blew. right smack there, a train of hurtful words. when im pissed, i can really be nasty. nethertheless you ruined my day. less spending together, perhaps she wants to have the day to themselves alone, just the two of them& no one else. maybe he doesnt know that until she had to said it out. but pls, thought you should know. there's more to say but in reality, i have spoken to you already. im not going to say more. ee sibuk

even though i just posted a harsh paragraph, im sorry. its the first time i see you teared. im sorry. but i could not resist any longer. i had to. i hope you understand. even though we face problem or even we argued, that doesnt mean i changed my love towards you boy. dont feel sad. im already happy. being together with you. i maybe sad or angry at times but its because we went too far& not because being with you. pls smile. i also want you to be happy. tears& frustration will burn out fast but happiness& love is not that very easily. all it takes, one word, trust(:
p.s; to my dear precious boyfriend, i love you

okays. after school yesterday super angry. retarded boys on the loose! arrgh. okays went home with maisarah as usual(: home-d around 1.30pm. bathe, ate& used th com. girlgirl got a ipod nano so her zen creative stone plus was passed down to me. yeah(: finally i got a mp3 player even though its secondhand but i dont mind as its from my sister.

after transferring songs from lappy, i wento get ready to go out to meet megatrons finally(: woohoo! too bad rudy, suhairy, nathan& nethiya are not free. so me, wong, muhd& abdul met up. haha. we met up yesterday cause muhd is entering ns next week. all the best(:

okays. left home around 5 plus as im meeting muhd at tanah merah mrt station at 6. wong& abdul are lazy so they cab themselves down to simpang bedok. me& muhd went to walk there. haha. we really ate alot(: hehe. gotta start exercising to loose all that fats. doing sit ups before i sleep or during anytime is not enough. FYI i wanna build up some abs(:

okays after having a big dinner, we decided to head down to town to catch a movie(: thanks abdul for the treat. he's so sweet to treat me to the movie. we caught 4bia. damn scary i tell ya. its a nc16 thai movie. so if you have watched shutter, you got to be ready to pee in your freaking pants.

movie was around 2 hours. wong was lazy again. we left town around 12 plus. wong cab us back home. home-d& ???

i was so shocked to see you below my block.

okays. before our ss test, teacher got us to check our final marks for every subjects. well. i failed 2): i got to buck up! cant start to give up now.
it was then test. melville is easily giving up. damn i care so much as he is like my partner for 2 years? i wanna see him come back next year.

after test, was chemistry& then maths. this time we stayed at class. the other band went to our aircon room instead. as usual, mr kuan& his naggings. it was recess& then english afterwards. boring. thanks to melville to keep me entertained as usual(: it was then malay& lastly biology.

after school, i went to see the dentist. here's the climax. they pulled my tooth! ouch. it hurt. well not really after the dentist injected my gums a few times? yeah. got to visit him on monday again. going to get another tooth pulled again. sighs. but for perfect teeth, yeah i got to do this. haha. &then after wards went to meet filzah, maisarah, rafidah, naimah& syuhaidah. it was home.

thanks maisarah for waiting for me(:

p.s; i miss you..

okays. this post will be about yesterday& today. hope it wont be long. haha(:

tuesday
reach school on time(: 1st period was english. go through with the paper once again. overall i scored english 55%): really very bad. sighs. okays then it was biology& then pe. something bad& funny happened to me actually.

we were playing captain's ball. boys& girls mixed. as usual. so fun(: but i didnt notice the ball was rolling behind my legs so i literally kinda rolled together with the ball at the end. it was super pain i tell you. thank God for joshua's plan. they asked me to sit on the bench then he& kenny carried me to the canteen. it was hilarious but i was touched by their love& my other classmates too.

okays fast forward. after school supposed to had consultation with mr tan for biology but at the end he disappeared-.- we reminded him during class so its not our fault. hehe. me, rafidah, naimah& syuhaidah chatted with mr richard AKA my godfather(: after that, homed.

bathed once homed. was planning to take a rest as i was dreadfully tired from school but at the end i decided to watch prior to happyness. its a true& sad story. yes i did cried furthermore the main actor was will smith& his real son. i was truly inspired by their movie(:

okays halfway during the movie, fatimah called(: met her at compass for dinner. missed her a bunch& adilah& sally& azimah too. had chickenrice at banquet. after that, we walked around. i bought a nike waterbottle at royal sporting house(: we walked home as we wanted to burn our fats. haha. it was then home.

wednesday
okays was drizzling when i was on my way to school. leg is pain due to yesterday incident so walked to school very slowly. was on time& 1st period was english. went through with prelim paper. arrgh. regrets alot.

2nd period was mother tongue. guess what? i forgotten my password to my locker. shit! oh. gonna eye on a dickies bag. was inspired by the magazine that shameer brought. haha& it was then ss/hist. i really hope i can score a 5 for it): then recess. ate(: yeah! haha. chemistry& then dnt.

me, pohying& grace decided to do something for all us dnt people(: its a secret. hehe. i love dnt now so much. with the teacher& classmates i have. makes it so fun(: after dnt, wento find naimah they all. head econ to buy something as i was hungry): then back to schol for consultaion with mr ng. ended at 6& homed @ 630. gonna bthe now. bye.

p.s; i miss you my dear boyfriend

okays. woke up around 7& prepared for school. for the 1st time im actually early for school. haha. what a laugh. &yes for the 1st time after so long, no ST today& then we had a concert about different kinds of drums brought together. it was actually nice& superb cause the music was perfect to soothe everyone's soul(:

recess. raf& kal was fasting so they stayed in their class. adilah went to find them 1st while me, mai, syu& nai went to just get drinks. filzah went to queensway with the art people to submit their workpiece. cool yo(: haha.

after recess it was english. got back paper 2& well i didnt do very well in it so i shall not speak about it anymore. hmms. after english it was poa& then it was maths. as usual mr kuan with his naggings. so sorry mr kuan i dont come look for you for maths consultation cause 1 reason you love to nag& secondly you love to joke with us which its good, but i cant concentrate then. sorry.

okays only 4e finish school today at 1pm. me, syu, mai, nai, fil& adilah went for lunch. afterwards headed out of school for icecream!! wee(: syuhaidah is my partner okays. we will always buy icecream together i tell ya. hehe. after that raf& kal came, fil left to meet afi followed by adilah& kalimah.

after that, it was 230-5.30 consultation with mr ng. it was going to rain so rafidah left for home. me, mai, syu& nai went to find mr ng. really had a long& good maths consultation with him for 3 hours! thanks mr ng so much(:

okays ended consultation at 530pm. went down to the hall to go support joshua, faiz& saaban as they are auditioning for teachers day. go guys!(: haha. we really waited for them to perform before we actually left for home. how nice are we(:

left school around 630pm& headed home(:

its going to be long days for me at school nowadays with me& the girls too. consultations with teachers or helping one another out. tomorrow its biology with mr tan. wednesday is maths with mr ng again& thursday with ms teng for chemistry. lastly friday, going study the whole freaking day at home most probably as saturday im going out with boyfriend.

he's at camp now. he needs to stay there for the whole month. haha. so sad. attending a course. hehe. but of course he can come back on friday eh?
p.s; pls take care my dearest boyfriend(:

im blogging now as im waiting for my food to be digested down my stomach before i continue to study. cant keep my blog unattended for a day can i?

random ahoy!(:

&another?(:

what a dimwit standing there oops!(:

my favourite pic of the day!(:

&now its your turn(:

even though she's my eldest sister, look at our height differences(:

yeah phunk it!(:

we're seriously bored!(:

wahahahaha!!(:

notice something??(:

yeah blue!(:

ha..LOL!(:

we're the youngest in the family(:

just see me do my thing(:

i was there to perk her up(:

i just love kissing her(:

see my dad drive(:

my little rascal(:

sumita(:

sums&shins(:


okays my dad came back around 8 plus yesterday. we were totally going to be late for our prayers! but my sisters said that we were always naturally late when meeting up with our relatives. dont know why. hehe. after my dad came to fetch me, shinta, sangeet & girlgirl, we went to fetch sumita. like the totally lost gone sister finally met up with the family. okays went to geyalng east avenue 2 the temple there. met up with all my relatives except my favourite one wasnt there. arajeane& aralin(: basically all my sisters love them. haha. okays. after temple, me& girlgirl were simply bored so we decided to camwhore! actually it was me cause i was the one all the way clicking the camera. haha. my dad were so kind enough to send girlgirl to plaza sing as she was off to meet prem they all. camwhore again!(: pity daddy as we went to east coast to chill a while as he was tired& need a 30min rest. then me, sangeet, shinta& sumi went off to walk walk. haha. did so many stupid stunts of our own(: haha. okays back to daddy's van around 11pm. homed closed to 12& off to meet syg once again.

okays. slept very early yesterday around 10 after i got homed& washed up. he's been sleeping since 7pm yesterday til this morning 8. he did woke up a few times. i knew cause he left me a text message once he woke up every time.

well this morning i woke up around 9. i decided to call him& i knew it he wanted to meet up with me for breakfast. we met around 1030 as he had to go buy breakfast for his family 1st(: i ate hotcakes with sausages while he ate mcgriddles. homed around 12. surf the net for a while& i decided to take a nap again. i was really damn tired):

woke up around 2. cried nightmares after nightmares. this is why i could wake myself up.its 750 on my clock and my family& i are going to the temple soon as its grandpa's anniversary. i so wish i could have the chance to live with you before you even go):

anyways going out soon& gonna meet boyfriend after that. sighs. i have so much to tell him. i really need his listening ear right this instance. im alright with my family once again. yeah(: gonna be more mature& think whats better or not.

p.s; im so sorry JU& SALLY especially that i couldnt come& help you guys out.

okays i was on time for school again. gee. i got to learn to wake up even more earlier for school. haha. okays. 1st period was combined humanities class& yes i didnt passed it. sighs. feel like giving up on it totally but thanks to the comfort& support from the ladies.. im not gonna give up so easily yet(:

anyways forget to mention. sally foo xiao yun came to sleep over at my house on the wednesday night. for what? haha. cause she misses me& of course to tutor me maths in the middle of the night!! hell yeah. but its because she's working full shift so it was so nice of her to sacrifice her rest& to stay over& tutor me maths. thanks to her i am better in maths now& loving it too(:

okays after school had consultation with mr arasu. after that was icecream again!! wee(:& then home after that. to filzah; thank god you& your family could get in(: next time pls be careful of locking the door yeah? anyways met syuhaidah, rafidah, naimah, maisarah & filzah at cmp at 4 to get our late lunch& headed to skcc to eat 1st& then study.

ended our studies at 8& headed back to cmp to check out n&o level books at popular. i bought chemistry& biology. its really good& useful(: gonna buy combined humanities tomorrow. yeah. homed at 9.30pm(:


sighs. whats wrong with you?

okays. im posting this one out late as i was studying since evening just now. hehe. sorry syu but i love the picture we took together&yes adilah i will keep that in mind to have paragraphs(:

okays today i was on time for school. received poa paper 1. well didnt do good for it but overall i passed it. anyways. received english paper 1. finally! haha. i did well for it but i expected higher actually): anyways congrats to naimah!(: for scoring highest for english& topping it as well. congrats to the rest too for doing well for english(: those who didnt scored, there's still time. please dont give up yet my friends.

gonna have consultations with teachers starting tomorrow onwards. tomorrow will be with mr arasu for social studies& history. then monday onwards will be other subjects.

n levels are seriously nearing ahead. only 20 days left& i got to work on my english as its the 1st paper we're having.

well. i really wanto score 1 for english, maths& dnt. well for poa& combined science i wanto score 2 for it well lastly combined humanities i just wanto pass it cause i have never pass it at all. it will really be a great achievement if i can finally passed it. practice sbq& memorise topics for essay is the main thing.

well hope we can get english paper 2 tomorrow even though there's no english tomorrow. anyway gonna sleep now. bye.

im going to be doing some paragraphs due to adilah's complaint. haha.

i will like to start off what happened on monday. okays. woke up at 11am. wooh thats early haha. was supposed to meet up with shantosh& bala for a movie but shantosh said he was sick so me& bala decided to cancel the outing& postponed it to another day next day in the near future. haha. clean up joey& the stinking toilet.

used lappy for a while& met syg at 5pm.

we went to plaze sing to catch the mummy. its nice(: i wore a dress for the first time on his bike. actually we wanted to take pictures. but chaos broke out at that point of time. i had no mood after that. sorry syg): anyways homed after that.

school next day. came to school on time. received history&maths paper 2. ENGLISH is taking too long. anyways didnt do very well for the papers. sighs. dont bother. anyways had the last dnt stay back after school session with mr tan. to edit our file& officially handing it to MOE. okays. sorry guys i couldnt stay with you all until 11+. but finally its over(:

well anyways met fatimah at cmp @ 8. its going to be rozak's last day today so it means a farewell goodbye to you. gonna have cake& present for him for being with us at the toughest time. thank you(:

yeah!! got to see adilah,fatimah,sally& azimah yesterday(: not forgetting my dear boss junaidi. haha. anyways fatimah& adilah called us the spice girls. bamx3!(: had took tons of pictures yesterday but sadly i dont have them. my phone was full was had to depend on the rest with our phototaking session. oh yes pls get well soon my dear lina(:

okays today at school. woke up late. shit. was late for school then. for past 2 days, form teacher has been on MC. yeah for us! but damn cant get to see our english papers. well n levels are in 20 days. going to study all the way now. thanks people for your support(: come on peeps lets strive hard& then we can relax&enjoy so much after that(:

okays since last night me&syg had a little argument& that i didnt accompany dear mommy to mustafa, i decided to fulfill my promise to my darling, maisarah(: dont worry my ladies you are my darlings too(: hehe. met maisarah at her busstop at 8pm. headed to cmp 1st to get joey's woodshavings. then got bubbletea&headed to cc to go through our prelim paper together. called melville to come down but he couldnt): its okays. dont feel bad alright? then bala&shantosh came down(: both was our tutors of the day. had sushi for supper hehe. then around 10.30 we left cc. walked home as shantosh was riding a bicycle. so sweet of us can. haha. home around 11.30(: was so fun with them last night. haha. hehe. hoho.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BALA!(:

p.s; im sorry syg..

jhfchdsljdfhufshnfsvjnfdf! i dont think you wanto know what even i said. i was damn tired to follow my mom to mustafa. sorry mommy): headed home by MYSELF. ee! stupid ignorant& foolish boy. promise to fetch me from my wedding but it turns out?! FYI. i didnt ask. he offered so i was like happyx2 cause thought i could see him but guess not. man what great timing he have. ee! im so angry ok. he knows he in the wrong but he still wanna act sarcastic with me. what i do? he is supposed to be cooling me down& not i? foolish. really damn foolish ok. i really wanna curse him with everything i got& had. slammed the phone down on him. i dont give a damn. i called him¬ he so what? ee! called him also he never talk. like wasted my time really. this is the problem about him. he dont make up with me. even thought he breaks a promise, all he will do is apologise. sighs. i really cannot take it. i really tried my best alot. really. why are you not doing anything. i hate you when you always say nothing. nothing? yeah my foot. watch me.
p.s; i dont even wanto see your face.

its 12.20 on my clock now. going to get ready soon to attend a wedding with my mom at yewtee there. its like raining cats& dogs nowadays. guess its the raining season now. sighs means raincoat for me&syg as we ride our bike): anyway my mom actually ask syg to come along but sadly he got wedding to attend also& that he nedd to escort too. well just hope& i pray it dont rain later cause syg is gonna fetch me from yewtee later. wee!(: maybe going after that. haha thank God im wearing my punjabi top only. lazy to wear full suit as im gonna travel there myself. so far. gaww!! haha. supposed to wake u at 12 but i woke u at 10.40 as i couldnt sleep back anymore. hahs. okays. gonna catch up with my blog later on. got to get ready now. tata!(:

yesterday was friday; 8th august 2008. in short, it was 080808(: nice number yo? haha. had to go to school still even though it was the eve of a public holiday. but no worries we went to school to celebrate and not to study. after the parade, we had a concert. after all that, school was released at 10.30& headed to dnt studio to check paper. sorry i cried again. i failed the theory paper badly& i only need 0.5 more marks to get an a1! how frustrating can it be. so much of hard work&effort i needed an a1 instead an a2. got to work up on my folio again later. sighs. anyway met the girls at canteen after wards. me&maisarah headed to rp for lunch at kfc. yummy. haha. anyway home-d after that. i love you girls! my ladies(: haha. i want more& more dresses please): anyways i was dumbfounded to receive a call from awal, my manager before. he was actually my manager at cmp but he got transfer to amk. still remember his last day. so many buckets of water. haha. okays. heres the thing. hehe. i cant blog it as its kinda a secret. anyway home-d at 12 thanks to syidah sending me home. i shall emphasize again she made me wait for her 30 to 45 minutes. met syg at night after that. my day for yesterday. had so much fun but i cant blog about it. sorry people.

TODAY.
9th august 2008; HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE(:
i woke up at 4. i think i slept for 12 hours. ha. guess im super tired and that i got the bed to myself i must of be enjoying(: see the national day at home. not going out. man what a boring day i do have on a saturday. ha. its okays. im really tired and i dont know why. anyways this is all i have to post. thank you so much fatimah, melville& grace for the encouragement(:

p.s; going for a wedding tomorrow at yewtee. im sorry abah):

was bored when syg was talking on the phone hahs(:






during dinner(:



yeah coke(:

random pictures of syg(:




our photo of the day(:

supposed to meet up with syg yesterday at 5 but it turned out at 7 at the end-.- nvm as long i met up with him was good already. wanted to spend more time with him actually as my exams were over but he was tired after racing at johor so ya i cut him some slack(: anyways we went to leisure park. had nothing there really. he was just wanting to hint me about iceskating. ya right syg its expensive pls dont k? haha(: anyways after that, headed for dinner at eastcoast for satay. wooh! not as nice as other satays we know. anyways sat for a while there& for me i took lots of pictures. hehe. after that home-d at midnight. really had a long talk together. finally. i missed him so so much. hees(: only my girls know about it. haha. feel so great having such close friends like them(: anyways school today& checked some papers. pass poa paper2&science! so shocking cause i didnt studied for it as i concentrated on maths but guess what? i failed maths by 6 marks. why? God pls tell me why. i really tried so hard. i told my ladies that i will squad down and cry if i failed maths&really i did): dont know it meant so much for me. maybe with all the hard work teachers, sally& adilah have been putting effort on me since last year. i feel i really wanto give them an A but sadly i havent give them one yet): tomorrow its half day& dont know what the plan we girls are going to have. the plain is to slack over at my house. not sure about that yet. haha.

to melville; thank you for being my only partner. yes you dont know how to cheer a person up but you will atleast make me smile(: since sec2 til now. im touched that even though what im going through, you're still there for me. you didnt change your friendship towards me at all. thank you so much. i love you(: anyways i owe you something. give me time to give it to you k? anyways happy belated birthday(: so sorry i didnt wished you happy sweet 16 birthday on the 3rdaugust. was concentrating too much on my prelims. so sorry buddy): i feel awfully bad.

to bala; thank you for your encouraging words. im always touched that you know what ever is going on in my life. so sorry i dont tell you what happens to me but thank you for being one of my best guyfriend(: love you for being the friend who comes always to cheer me up(:

to saaban; thank you for cheering me up. sorry i cried. haha. lets work hard togther k? love you for being a friend who makes me laugh everytime(: dont put the blame on dnt k? we'll work doubly harder for n levels now(:

to grace; no use crying k girl? you can do it i know you can. maybe with just careless mistakes, you didnt do that great. work harder together with anna&teachers k? its not the end yet. now strive more&ever further. love you(:

to sally; im sorry girl but i love you for being the only babe who havent given up on me yet. i havent scored my a for you yet. i promise im going to try to still for my n level. pls give my more intensive tuition for maths now. im going stop being stubborn& be more focus now. thank you for giving me another chance(:

to rafidah,syuhaidah,naimah,maisarah&filzah; pls girls its not the end yet. let strive further&even more harder k? i know nothing can stop us. lets go up together. i know that you all wanto. thank you for bring me even more up(: i was stupid for crying but i hope you guys understand why i did cried& maisarah, thank you for being the one who come& find me. i love you guys(:

to mr ng&mr kuan; my maths teachers. im sorry i havent pass maths yet. thank you for encouraging me alot. especially mr ng when you dont teach me anything at all. your words are really so touching&motivating i cried when you talked over me at the phone. &mr kuan i will do my best. thank you teachers that you know i really did my best but im not going to stop yet(: i love my teachers

to girlgirl; sis i told you im going to score 3points& i will really get it. im going to show off to eveyone my certificate when i get it. im gonna make you proud i swear. im going to show everyone that we're a smart family even though in this f*cked up life. i wanna bring a future for you&abah(: i love our family

&lastly to my dearest boyfriend; thank you for your words. i know you're not really a person who can cheer people up but you tried&you did. pls take care. i dont want anything to happen to you at all. like i say before, i hope you can be beside me to motivate me all the way. i wanna be that girl that people will look up to& say you got the greatest girlfriend& yes im going to try. pls stand by me. i love you so much syg

p.s; i teared again as i typed all of this down. thank you my loved ones(:

me&syu had to sit on papers!(:

yeah!(: finally prelims are done(: but.. cant rest asure yet as we're getting to see all our papers today& n levels are definitely nearing): have to study back again this weekend): no more enjoyment for little old me. sighs. anyways. after exams, headed to compass point with naimah, syuhaidah, maisarah& filzah. we ate oldchangkee&drink bubble tea as we slacked at 2nd level. i saw something i was not supposed to see): homed early as i thought i was going to mett syg at 4 but at the end he said he wanted to rest. sighs. today had poa& dnt paper. for the first time, both papers were hard on one day& i think i will flunk both. its damn sad i tell ya. i was supposed to woke up before exams around 3 or 4 but guess what?! i woke up at 6.30!! fcuk!! it was a long story which happened. i was planning to take a few couple of rest at my sofa but it turns out my phone was off so i didnt hear my phone. oh snap?! we had a misunderstanding there. i really didnt needed that just now but it was all my fault. i already woke up late. didnt had my early revision as i usually needed. &we fought): sadly i made you teared. im so sorry. i really want us to be happy most of the time. sighs. hope we meet later we can talk things out& spend time with each other again. im really sorry but i didnt know what happened. seeing those messages made me teared even during exams. im sorry):

stab cute only(:

i hope that smile will perk you up(:

MANGO is LOVED(:


everytime during examination period, you can think of providing me more redbull than a bed. i will always sleep less than 4hours i can say. the lack of sleep has brought me dark circles. sighs. well today had history paper. the only paper i wanto emphasise again! hehe. &for the first time, i could do the paper. usually i'll be stuck with ss&history as i have bad memorisation. you could say maybe i have short term memory loss. hahs. but im not sure whether i will do well in it. right now, all i have to do is pray hard. im planning to fail one paper this time. no more 3, no more 2. so paper ended about 9.30am& off i wento eat with my girls. haha. sorry ladies. im a very big eater as you all know. hehe. anyways tomorrow is finally the last day of prelims. woohoo!(: its dnt&poa for me. lets do it grace&pohying(: lets do well for our theory paper. my other dnt mates as well(: haha still remember my baby&i are still wearing each other's watch. anyways home-d at 12& slept till 3. bathe, eat& its time to study&give my very best. hahs. all the best to my schoolmates&friends too(:
p.s; i miss you syg..

i just got off the phone with syg. had a good 30minute talk with him. miss him dearly so much. thank you syg for waking me up(: i was actually so tired to wake up&study for history but you woke me up with your voice(: im listening to disturbia by rihanna now. its really to my mood now. hehe. so solemn. hahs. okays. going to study history now. byes.
p.s; i love you syg>.<

its 11.40 on my clock. a mishap just happened in my house. FUCKYOU! my blood is boiling to the fucking core. no more mercy for anybody. the world is just full of sinners like you&me. i may be rude at times but im harsh for certain reasons. if you think im acting or being such a drama queen, you havent seen better ones than me(: yes im being sarcastic but i fucking dont care. i fucking hate hypocrites&backstabbers. i may talk about people but not everyday in my life. people who talk about the same particular person, hey buzz off! would ya? whats wrong with you people?! my gosh. for people like us taking our n's or o's, stop it with all the nuisance please. you must be particularly inmature at thinking to do so. i may not have the say but this is what i believe. people who take people for granted, that person is either a bastard or a BIATCH. look again. im emphasising on the word. not appreciated with the help, you better think of not asking for our help again cause you're asking for it. ask me to call you but at the end you're talking to your friends or doing something else? what the hell? then what worth i called you? just a bloody waste of my time serious. if i do to you, wont you feel frustrated as me? think again before you start questioning me. this is so far what i need to blog right now. my blog, i dont need to hide about anything about it. it takes courage to show who you're really are. think its you, think twice or better still dont be fucking guilty conscience. i despise people who make people's life miserable because of you giving your FUCKING attitude. im standing up for people out there. i know how it feels. please place yourself in people's shoes before opening your mouth any wider. changing yourselves is not worthy if you're changing yourself more worse& i shall say again. im being opened&straightforward in my blog.
p.s; im sorry for my foul language.

summary of what my weekends was like. i had a post on saturday but it was only a post about the 'when i grow up' lyrics. after that, i went to study-.- actually planned to study poa first but it turned out that i've decided to change to chemistry. man i freaking had 3 examinations today. 1st was maths followed by chemistry& lastly poa. i studied chemistry on sat night while i studied poa on sunday. had abit of revision on maths as i studied&revised much with my dear sally that time(: oh! i miss them. pizza hut people especially fat, sally, adilah, azimah& syidah): these people are my LOVED(: anyways met with syg on sat night or you can say sunday morning to catch late supper at macs. he was craving for mcspicy& so was i(: hehe. gonna meet up with syg on wednesday after my prelims are over(: its like to congratulate&relax myself+ it has been long since we went out. anyways heard from joshua&my sisters, singfest was the bomb! i should of went! arrgh! but its okays i had to sacrifice as this is my n's prelims yo. sorry my ladies if you guys are planning to go out on wednesday after exams>.< im really sorry. anyways tomorrow is history paper only. yippie! finally for the first time the only paper for the day(: for tha past few days at had been 2 or 2 papers a day. its super tiring when we have 3 papers on 1day especially. oh well): syg is at duty now. pls take care my love. you'll be home tomorrow already k? not only you but i too fucking miss you so so much!
p.s; i love you(:

to melville; thanks for teaching me that maths question on the phone. it was really sweet of you to remember. anyways i was shocked when you told me my boyfriend sent pizza to your house yest. haha(: my faithful reader too.

check it out yo. i've finally found a song that so like me.
just look at the lyrics. its what i actually want in life but man its so impossible.
if only there's a miracle yeah?



[Intro, x2]
Boys call you sexy (What's up, sexy)
And you don’t care what they say
See, every time you turn around
They screamin' your name

[Verse 1]
Now I've got a confession
When I was young I wanted attention
And I promised myself that I’d do anything
Anything at all for the boys to notice me

[Bridge]
But I ain't complaining
We all wanna be famous
So go ahead and say what you wanna say
You know what it's like to be nameless
Want them to know what your name is
'Cause see when I was younger I would say

[Chorus]
When I grow up
I wanna be famous
I wanna be a star
I wanna be in movies

When I grow up
I wanna see the world
Drive nice cars
I wanna have Groupies

When I grow up
Be on TV
People know me
Be on magazines

When I grow up
Fresh and clean
Number one chick when I step out on the scene

[Hook x2]
But be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it
But you just might get it
But You just might get it

[Verse 2]
They used to tell me I was silly
Until I popped up on the TV
I always wanted to be a superstar
And knew that singing songs would get me this far

[Bridge]
But I ain't complaining
We all wanna be famous
So go ahead and say what you wanna say
You know what it's like to be nameless
Want them to know what your name is
'Cause see, when I was younger I would say

[Chorus]
When I grow up
I wanna be famous
I wanna be a star
I wanna be in movies

When I grow up
I wanna see the world
Drive nice cars
I wanna have Groupies

When I grow up
Be on TV
People know me
Be on magazines

When I grow up
Fresh and clean
Number one chick when I step out on the scene

[Hook x2]
Be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it
You just might get it
You just might get it

[Verse]
I see them staring at me
Oh I'm a trendsetter
Yes this is true 'cause what I do, no one can do it better
You can talk about me
'Cause I'm a hot topic
I see you watching me, watching me, and I know you want it

[Chorus]
When I grow up
I wanna be famous
I wanna be a star
I wanna be in movies

[Chorus]
When I grow up
I wanna be famous
I wanna be a star
I wanna be in movies

When I grow up
I wanna see the world
Drive nice cars
I wanna have Groupies

When I grow up
Be on TV
People know me
Be on magazines

When I grow up
Fresh and clean
Number one chick when I step out on the scene

[Hook x2]
Be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it
You just might get it
You just might get it

[Chorus]
When I grow up
I wanna be famous
I wanna be a star
I wanna be in movies

When I grow up
I wanna see the world
Drive nice cars
I wanna have Groupies

When I grow up
Be on TV
People know me
Be on magazines

When I grow up
Fresh and clean
Number one chick when I step out on the scene

[Hook x2]
Be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it
You just might get it
You just might get it

okays prelims have started already. wednesday was MLB paper1&2 for me. so i dint really had to study for it. then i had social studies paper after that. man study so hard for it& DAMN. i forgot some points): it was a long day with 3papers. i just found out something. joshua says drinking redbull makes you loose hair. oh damn. think im having it-.- anyways thursday was freaking maths paper1&biology. man im so weak in 3 subjects; SS, HISTORY& BIOLOGY. it shows i cannot memorise. i regretted following my sister's choice. i should of take physics even though its hard. what the hell. its too late already sunita. anyway on wednesday night, sally came over to my house to tutor me maths. she's the best teacher(: no one can replace her. i love her to the core!!(: i could do maths. yippie(: but i couldnt do bio): its too hard i tell ya. everyone was complaining that both bio&physics is DAMN hard! after papers, had s short consultation for dnt with mr tan. after that met the girls at canteen to catch lunch as i would be having english consultation with mrs norlinda(: actually its me,syu&filzah only but then rafidah forgot to bring her keys so she came along with us. haha(: left school around 5. home-d around 530pm. didnt study much as the next day was english papers only. i kept on sleeping as i had lack of sleep for the past few days. thank god i could do it(: paper2 was a bit complicating as the questions were twisting&turning around. after school, slacked with maisarah, syuhaidah, naimah& adilah under the block=void deck(duh!(:) home-d around 2 o'clock.
bathe,eat& slept. woke up around 5.30pm as im meeting cheeyen for poa. with the 2hour of rest really helps alot. after blogging im definitely going to knock off. we only like study for 10minutes? the rest we were gossiping&talking about our life! so fun(:
home-d around 1130pm. ghost festival has started. going to stay home of if i go out, im gonna be home early. there's so much to post actually but im damn tired. sorry people.

i dont understand why,
its my prelims now but i so much wanto see you,
i miss you dearly syg,
i love you so much thats why,
it doesnt hurt if i wanto see you for a while,
now i talk to you,
you dont seem you have the mood,
i ask you why,
& you'll answer me nothing,
i know you well syg you yourself know,
i sometimes feel being part of your life is useless,
i dont know,
it makes me fall to the ground&break down,
nothing is working right for us this week,
maybe im selfish& i need to understand,
but i know it takes 2hands to clap,
girls have instinct,
dont you dare lie to me about anything,
cause i can tell,
maybe i should leave you alone for the meantime,
or prefably,
please tell me what you actually want,
im waiting,
im sick&tired of speaking up 1st,
this time im going wait,
p.s; to my dearest boyfriend