today school syg, sent me to school(: whats wrong. i feel there's something fishy. sighs. had english the 1stpreiod, followed by biology& pe. i love pe cause my class love to play captains ball together even though we're super big(: guess what? we broke the notice board glass panel. what the hell. haha. but was fun anyway. we didnt care to stop even though the bell rang already. after school straight away, wento find ms teng for consultation for chemistry with cheeyen. later had english consultation with mrs norlinda, kaili, cherly, naimah, syuhaidah& filzah(: home-d around 5.30pm. bathe, eat& gonnd start studying. prelims starts tomorrow people. stress is on the line. sighs. ya what the hell. having my malay b paper tomorrow together with socialstudies. thursday gonna have biology& MATHS! thank god sally is coming tomorrow to tutor me maths again. man i miss she&her bickering(: &well friday is english only. my aim is to get a 2. then those subjects are over, im left with poa, chemistry, maths still, history& dnt. the weekends im going to study maths, poa& chemistry. i will study dnt& history the day before the exams. i dont know why also-.- sighs.

i really hope you do understand i need to concentrate. please think before you said you wanto meet me. like duh i wanto see you but im resisting myself not to as i know, my education comes first. i really thought we could atleast have dinner together but guess your camp had to end very late. this is once in a life time chance for me. you want me to go for o's dont you? i just hope you will even accompany me to go study if you wanto see or meet me like what you mentioned to me before. i just hope that will happen very soon. i dont wanto say cause i dont wanto be a selfish pig. if you wanto know why i want you so much to accompany me study, cause i know it will motivate me alot.
p.s; i love you syg(:

anyways all the best&good luck to all my friends, classmates& schoolmates(:

I JUST FEEL LIKE TYPING IN CAPS LOCK NOW(: HAHA. WELL TODAY SCHOOL WAS ALL SWELL I GUESS? MORNING HAD SOCIALSTUDIES ST. END LATE AROUND 9.40? LIKE WHAT THE HELL? TAKE 10 MINUTES OF MY RECESS TIME. SINCE ME&FILZAH ARE BIG EATERS, WE COULDNT RESIST BUT EAT(: WE ASKED THE REST TO GO UP WITHOUT US AS WE ATE OUR FOOD. THANK GOD WE WERE ON TIME EVEN THOUGH WE'RE LATE FOR HER TO CATCH US&SCOLD US. HA! HAD ENGLISH. CRAPPING WITH HAHEHOFIDZ, CHEEYEN& MELVILLE. SYU,NAI& MAI SAY THAT THEY CAN PRACTICALLY HEAR MY VOICE&LAUGHTER(: HEHE THATS WHAT YOU GET A PATHEE(NOT SURE OF SPELLING BUT SUPPOSED TO BE GRANDMOTHER IN TAMIL) HAD POA. AS USUAL WE WERE NOISY. I WAS THINKING OF DROPPING SS/HISTORY BUT MAI DINT LET ME AS I DROPPED MALAY ALREADY. THANKS FOR BEING SO CONCERN GIRLS(: LAST PERIOD MATHS; MR KUAN'S CLASS. HE WAS SO FUNNY TODAY. WE KEPT ON MAKING EACH OTHER LAUGH. WELL AFTER SCHOOL MET WITH ANNA&GRACE(: WENT TOGETHER TO FIND MR TAN @ DESIGN STUDIO. MY IDEATION ALWAYS COCK UP! NEVERMIND I'LL SETTLE WITH YOU AFTER PRELIMS. HEHE. MET THE GIRLS DOWNSTAIRS AT CANTEEN. ON GIRLGIRL'S LAPTOP&HAD LOTS OF FUN OF IT(: WEE!! ME, SYU, NAI, FIL, MAI, AD, ANNA&GRACE KEPT ON TAKING MOTION PICTURES(: SO FUN OKAYS. HAD SO MUCH LAUGHTER. HAHAHAHAHA!! AFTER A WONDERFUL PHOTOTAKING SESSION, HAD MATHS CONSULTATION WITH MR KUAN TOGETHER WITH CHEEYEN, MAI& MELVILLE. CONCENTRATE ON THE 1ST PART BUT AFTER THAT COULDNT CONCENTRATE SO WENTO FIND SYU, RAF&NAI(: HAHA LAUGH LIKE CRAZY OKAYS. AFTER THAT, MAI, CHEEYEN&MELVILLE CAME TO FIND US. SO MUCH LAUGHTER. I REALLY LOVE THAT MOMENT WE ALL SHARED(: HEHE. TOO BAD YILONG NOT THERE HAHA. ANYWAYS AFTER THAT, WENT TO ACCOMPANY MAI TO COMPASSPOINT. WE WERE ON TIME BEFORE THE BANK WAS CLOSE. HOME-D AT 6.30PM. GOING TO BE DOING MY ENGLISH HOMEWORK&PRACTICE MATHS. TOMORROW AFTER SCHOOL IM BOOKED FOR CHEMISTRY WITH CHEEYEN(:

HAPPY 7TH MONTH TO YOU SYG..I LOVE YOU(:


THIS IS THE ONLY NICE PHOTO WE TOOK. THE MANY MORE ARE ALL LAUGHING PICTURES(:

well. yesterday was a long day for me. i had to woke up at 8am! thanks to my sister we had to go immigration. ate at tongseng coffeeshop for lunch with sangeet&shinta. was lunch time so we ate quick&head home after that. home around 2.30pm(: so tired i fell to bed straight away and woke up around 5.30pm due to syg's phone call(: wento bathe&get ready& syg came ard 6pm. he had to wait for me for a little while only. hehe. headed for e-hub 1st to get movie tickets to dark night. long but its a nice movie(: thanks to his MEETING, we miss abit of the 1st part of the movie. the movie was at 11.10pm. we came 11.30 ok? arrgh. was angry for a while but i learnt to forgive&forget. at his bike meeting, i saw miss sue molly again. haha(: i made 2 new hilarious friends! haha especially ezan(: anyways after getting the tickets, we headed to tampines to get my headset. woohoo!! finally new ones(: music can keep me company everytime. after that, headed to changi for dinner. we packed our food &headed to the beach to have a late night "picnic". took pictures using sally's camera(: sorry babe will return it to you soon but im just so in love with your camera(: its now time to study. oh i would like to thank saaban for his encouragement& to pohying too, i have the believe you can finish tomorrow(: to my GIRLS especially, have the faith(: i wanto see you all together next year k? & to all my friends, you all can do it. its still not to late to buck up&study. start now. lets start the challenge together now(:

to syg;
to have green eyes is not a friendly sight,
you should change& show your pretty brown eyes,
your eyes are big&beautiful,
do not make them ugly,
you say you do not have the looks but i do,
your jealousy&love grew for me alot,
i dont go for the outside but i go for inner side,
to me you're handsome,
we may be 6years apart,
but i hope something bright is in our future,
i really didnt enjoyed yesterday due to all the lashings,
but after soothing each other,
im ecstatic to see you smile again,
syg, im very touched with words you spoke to me last night,
my heart was beating to a speed of lightning,
i wanto last with you until our last breath,
p.s; i love you syg(:

more,more&MORE!!(:

congratulations to me!! i have finally finish dnt!! the coursework which consists of presentation boards, artefact& my freaking folio!! i am just so happy. lalalalalala(: haha. congrats to you too grace(: finally you can hang out with anna. haha. i can hang out with my girls(: yippie!! time to study for prelims& n levels. i cannot wait for all of this to end. i need money. i need freedom. i need life. haha. i wanto spend time with my boyfriend, family& friends every single day!! haha. gdyafifjdngjkd. im like spamming my blog like that-.- yilong is like beside me being very irritating. haha. new names for people in dnt that me& garce created. hafiz is hahehofidz(: hahahahahaha. then saaban is shabar(: zaki is zuky! thanks to grace mine is sushita. wahahahaha!! so funny at dnt just now. too bad hahehofiz is gone for red cross ceremony. oh ya grace is grass(: hehe. its like 7.30pm on my clock& im still in school. need to be an assistance to my dnt mates if they need my help. go pohying! hope this will inspire you(: i got pictures to blog. but too bad im in school so maybe NEXT TIME. ha. today that stupid bulldozer made me freaking angry so WTH that glue had to hear. i wanto apologise to rafidah, syuhaidah& naimah for venting my anger on them. seriously they did no deserved to receive that side from me. anyways thanks for the wonderful poses that raf take for me after school. i wanto say to JARL especially that i cant accompany him to dinner at all. i owe you k? anyways i miss my syg alot& i really wish to see you tomorrow. i hope you see this cause its hard for me to tell you sometimes as i dont wanto hear bad news):
p.s; i love you alot syg..
anyway happy birthday to my MOM(:, laisim& yangzhi. sorry for wishing you guys so late but i hope you are touched by my blessings(:

today i was on time for school. as usual. hahs. finally me&grace are almost done with dnt. just left with pasting. yes. hahahahaha!! mr tan is so funny. including the guys; hafiz, saaban, bejamin, yilong, gerald, joash and andy. everyone is up already just zaki. come on. you can do it. faster faster k? anyways today mr arasu didnt come so as usual the girls&i gossip gossip but this time together with melville. i want liangrong's phone!! but i came late as me&grace got pulled out from the previous lesson by mr tan about solidworks. yes finally we've done it(: laughed alot thanks to rafidah, syuhaidah, maisarah, naimah& filzah(: hehe. well i promise to post the racial harmony photos so here there are. haha. nice nice. p.s; i miss you syg..










haha.. there are many many more but guess what? im lazy to upload them. haha. hehe.

yesterday was racial harmony and the whole class of 4E wore traditional costumes(: i like it when all of us do thing together so united. anyways i will try to post the pictures later as im in school suppose to be doing dnt but me&grace, ha. kinda lazy to do it. hehe. haha. we're almost done anyways. FINALLY. just waiting for mr tan right now. we're like hiding ourselves at the corner doing our stuff. sighs. haha. well yesterday dnt we went crazy i tell ya. haha took loads of funny pictures which turns to a motion picture actually. haha. here are the nice ones only(: too much to upload. haha. hehe.

im going to let out my emotions all out here. starting from here im going to say im not going to mention anyone's name here cause i dont wanto put the person in jeopardy. i am furious. maybe whatever i scold you people about never go in your head is it? please learn and then i will forget. i hate people to piss me off ALOT. and i mean ALOT before i snap. if i teach you once and you dont get it, its ok but when i have teach you twice, you still dont get it, its okays but when i teach you more than 5 times, man im going to blow ok. im already very sick so i really thought you guys will understand N please do. its o110 on my clock & im supposed to be studying but i dont know why i cant with all the frustration within me disturbing me. you wanto borrow people's thing please ask& oh ya limit yourself cause it is PEOPLE'S things& not yours. i hate dramtic people alot. abit i can still stand but over my top, please get lost. whats with the lack of people now. oh when before there's alot cut our roster, now so lack& when i need the time to study, call me to work again. i dont mind really but it is NEARING my prelims. where are the other people man i really need to know. if you really got thing to attend i dont mind but if you're at home lying your butt around, pls understand, people are going for their national examinations. thank god sally&wan is working tomorrow. oh TO YOU, i know you wont be able to see what i post right now but this is my blog. hey, you made me do this. dont get the hint. what? im supposed to be straight to you all the time? then when you hint me im supposed to get it? HELLO. wake up. fair& square. if you can play your game, i can too ok. i have enough seriously. im only a sweet sixteen girl. im supposed to have a life but whats with all this restriction here& there. you're mad cause im going out with MY friends so im supposed to be fine with it? in the name, HELL NO. maybe im pulling you back whatever you doing in life but you dont have to beat around the bushes. just go straight god damnit. you will not be able to see this but i am going to tell you why i am behaving like this to you. if you give way to me, i will definitely give way to you. usually meeting each other at night, what the crap. might as well dont meet. im sick&tired. seriously. if you care for me, you will not wanto meet me SO late at the night& let me have my rest UNLESS certain circumstances. always tired. hell WHAT? funny you must say so im not tired with the late coming home from school, squeezing my brain juice out everyday& the lack of rest? hello look here. if i can take it, you should be able to sometimes, but not all the time. i can understand really but i must see the situation. maybe i should play the same game to you like how you do to me& see how you really feel. i may sound like a bitch here but people, im standing up for myself. i really wanto apologise to those people i vent my anger to due to IDIOTIC people irritating me. i think i have changed. seriously. i love my friends now. in& out now. i can be who i am& not hide myself anymore. thank you girls for bringing me out form my shell. i wont forget my outside friends too. thats all i think i need to say here. after that sms, i wnato see what are you going to do. im really going to wait. i f*cking dont care anymore. im not going to be the one speaking first anymore. see. i have so much to say. yes i miss you, yes i love you but i cant be faking my smile everyday to you. as im attached, i know my limit so you should. nethertheless, that f*cking biatch better stay away from guys who are attach ok. man. gee. what is the world coming to right now. end.

im not going out on a saturday anymore. going to be home studying and catching up on my school work as prelims and n levels are nearing. i think i have been repeating this particular verse alot of time but is to remind me to be more serious and stop being SUPER lazy. anyways woke up to maisarah's phone call around 12 plus. woke up and ate lunch. my appetite is now much more smaller than before. guess due to my critical sickness, i am behaving this way. my voice is changing. cannot sing in the toilet anymore. sighs. what in the name. my cough is getting worser than before. no use taking medicine. like what maisarah and naimah say, you have to follow the procedure or not is no use and i got to agree. anyway what a wacky time we had just now. they came to my house to try out my costumes. hehe guess i'll be wearing a kebaya on monday. hope my syg can see me wearing it one day eh? haha wait for your turn(: anyways will blog this much. going to lend my costumes to maisarah, naimah, adilah, anna& grace(: hope you guys love it. hope you all can fit to it as well. anyways SYG. im not supposed to take icecream when i sick ok(:

finally it a friday. had a fever on wednesday night. home-d after dnt around 9& i fall flat on my sofa. feeling so hot inside but cold outside. decided to take a bathe& then i shall sleep. eventhough the water was hot, i was freezing like shit i tell ya. anyways after that quick bathe, i fall flat again but this time on my bed instead. ha! anyways welcome back my dearest step-mommy!! didnt went school on the thursday&friday as i had 2days of MC. so what with the 2days MC? i still had to go back to school in the afternoon for dnt. man the loved ones around me sure are mad with me for being stubborn. anyways keep up the good works my dnt mates!! you all can do it seriously(: p.s; this is to: Gracelu, Pohying, NurulAdilah, SookWei, Saaban, Hafiz, Zaki, Joash, Gerald, Yilong, Benjamin, Salihin, Wilson, Andy, YuXiang, Nickson& of course me(: many things to do on the weekend. my DNT, study for chem&bio test this monday, homework for maths&eng. sighs! what's the world coming to. i wish for God's guidance right now so much. anyways this coming monday is racial harmony. have to wear traditional clothes. woohoo! haha. the girls; syuhaidah, rafidah, adilah, naimah, kalimah, maisarah& maybe filzah will be coming over to my house tomorrow to try out my costumes. hope to see you guys!!(:

the dnt girls(: adilah,pohying,ME! & grace.. love them alot.. spend many nights with them together(:

firstly i wanto say happy birthday to you HAFIZ!! haha(: when got girl tell me k? hehe. anyways today school end at 1. re-run my 2.4km at the SCHOOL field. man i was like going to die any minute-.- but thank god i passed(: with the encouragement from the girls!-naimah, syuhaidah, maisarah, adilah& filzah!! (: love them& not forgetting rafidah&kalimah. making my day always full of laughter. hehe. anyways good luck to my fellow friends who are going to take their Olevel mother tongue listening(: walked back home with maisarah. so long okays?! miss those times. hehe. anyway home-d at 2. bathe&blogged. going to eat&start revising abit already. no time to loose. sighs. i wanto strive for poly(:
p.s; i wish we can meet up for dinner later syg.. miss you already>.<

well just now.. i had a maths test, a poa test & my english nLevel oral examinations!! woah alot in the start of the week. haha. what can i say? sec4 life is like this. having national exams we have to go through. anyways eventhough i have so many things to study for today, i took the time to study it all on sat. woah. home on a saturday. thanks to my boyfriend which he slept the whole night! til the next day. well but i dont blame you k? i understand syg(: anyways after wani's sister's wedding we went home right.. well we met up around 5&went out(: hee! i just miss him so much. anyways we first went to cmp pizzahut(our 2nd home) as i needed to meet sally to take her camera cable. hehe. finally she found it& anyways babe thanks alot(: will return you once i transfer everything k? after that we headed for TOWN, as i needed to get something over there. sadly its out of stock): syg cheered me up and we decided to walk around town to kill time&to also see whether other places have the thing i wanted&needed. it was 7plus&we decided to head to tanjong rhu to chill&relax. We then headed to kallang macd to took away our food& decided to have a 'picnic'. haha. after that my eldest sis called asking for my help to buy her plugs for her office so then me&syg headed for mustafa. he's damn protective okays(: thank you baby.. home-d around 11. p.s; i love you syg(:

hey people! im blogging again. just now wento syazwani's sister wedding. so cool it was like we were on time when the groom arrive. sadly, only azimah,me,adilah&syg went. syazwani was kinda sad but she got fafa ma.. haha!! i saw her mother cried. so sad. guess she's going to miss her daughter. everybody just now was talking who's turn is next. adilah was saying wani&fafa will be next but wani say adilah&zaki will be next and then all say me&danial will be next. like wat? im only 16 haha(: think 8-10 years time yeah? took car. thank god! it was damn hot! haha(: man forgot to head to cmp pizzahut to take sally's camera cable.. have to go there later i guess.. sighs.. haha(: anyways! photo of day! forget to take with the clique): i love you syg!(:

dnt is over. i still remember thursday where me&pohying stayed over at grace's house to do dnt the whole night together. kinda slept only for a few minutes! about 6plus am.. anna came over. she said all of us look like zombies and yes i agreed with her. im so strong that i only slept during malay class yesterday. woohoo!! but of course i will wake up late today on a saturday to catch up on my rest. guess what? with all the lack of sleep for the past few days.. i slept about 14hours!! woah thats alot. finish dnt yesterday around 9 home-d and met syidah for dinner. thanks babe(: i miss mee kuah alot. hehe. home-d at 12&yes i fell dead straight away. good luck to all my dnt mates! you can do it(: lastly i miss my syg):

submission date for dnt is the 11th july 2008& it's this friday!! oh my do know if we can finish it on time. my friends&i are pretty worry so we're kinda staying up late. terrible eye bags is coming up on me. oh dear): anyways cant blog more. got to do my dnt. had dinner with dear pohying&grace(: saw my form teacher there. oops!! haha. home around 9. late but we went to rp to get our a2 presentation board. anyways i wish for God's blessings upon me now. thank you.

today is a holiday. anyway i wanto wish happy birthday to FILZAH&SUMITA(: happy sweet 16th to you guys! haha. okays yesterday after duty syg came to meet me for breakfast(: we met around 9 plus. he parked his bike below my block and we headed to rp. i ate hotcakes with sausage while syg ate sausage mcmuffin with egg. i miss him so much): home around 1(: slept for about 1 hour and woke up to get ready for maisarah's sister's engagement. met up with the girls about 4. her sister was damn pretty(: anyway i left around 5plus with filzah&sakdiyah. met my babe, fatimah at 6. decided to accompany her to get the gifts for the june&july babies so we headed to cmp pizza hut to check people's shoes sizes. after that, we headed down to vivo city. after getting the gifts, we went to banquet for dinner. as usual fatimah is on a diet due to her london weight management thinging. oh by the way we saw alot of celebrities there too. we headed home after dinner. on our way back home we took many many pictures(: haha home around 9. was planning to do dnt the whole night but my eyes couldnt take it that it shut off around 11 plus. anyways i think thats it. i wanto say i love my mommy too(:

hey people!! my life has been so boring especially weekdays. everyday after school have dnt til 8pm. im so damn shack. prelims are coming& yes im worried that i havent study. im going to start studying after i hand in my coursework up on the 11th july. going to have sleepless nights again. sighs): anyway yesterday the girls& i head up to vivo to celebrate filzah's birthday in advance. so sorry babe you had to see drastic scenes. anyway supposed to meet at 2 instead it dragged til 3. shinta came along with me& i first went to find filzah's present. too bad maisarah is not coming but atleast she is still going to share present with me(: after that met up with naimah,rafidah& syuhaidah. haha thanks babes for making my little sister's day(: anyway dont wanto mention about what actually happened. forward!! surprise filzah with a big chocolate birthday cake that kalimah ordered for $36? woah. anyways filzah's boyfriend was there with latif,ridwan then came mardino&faiz. sighs that boy i really didnt used to know. anyway zaki,redza,simFaiz,khalis,zul&shantosh came. thanks guys for coming(: aftermath, little fat called me. damn i missed her. haha she came down to vivo&met up as we had to go get april&may birthday babies presents. anyway home around 10. didnt meet syg): i miss you. p.s; going for the meeting later.